I have been putting off blogging for so long,I have sat down,organized,marked down in my calendar,written so many blog posts in my head for weeks,until finally today at 5.18 am in the morning in my typical fashion,I just sat down and decided to write.
I’m not a planner,I don’t do well with organizing and plotting charts of how i am going to get things done. I’m very organic about everything I do,I’m the kind of person that will just get up one morning and do what I want to do when the light bulb gets turned on.
What I decided to do with this blog was to plan and organize, and I failed miserably because it’s really just out of character for me this is how God made me I have to work with it,I’ve fought it I won’t lie,I’ve really tried to be that person but I’m not,I’m not a planner I’m a doer,I literally just get a light bulb switch and do.
Anyway I digress,the gist is,I took an unplanned hiatus,after writing three posts,partly because I’m still trying to figure out what I want to achieve with my writing. I believe everything in life should have purpose and meaning.
What do I really want to say,firstly I really want to talk about God. I do. I want to talk about my faith,I want to talk about existential questions,I want to talk about life,I want to talk about deep stuff.
The question is how,I want to maintain a balance and if I do talk about God I do need to be inspired by the Holy Spirit, but even with that I do fear,will my words contradict my actions,I’m too real of a person,I can’t do the whole motivational christian thing I’m sorry,I’m not the girl who is going to tell you what to do or how to live your life,but I do want to share stories,I just want you to stop and think sometimes,I want to express conversation that is deeply introspective and observational,I get overwhelmed sometimes,when I think about what I want to do.
So,I’ve decided to do what I do best,just write stuff that’s in my head when the light bulb comes on,if you know me personally and you end up reading this blog,please read objectively don’t try to reconcile the girl you know, with the person who writes this blog,they are sometimes two very different people. I really don’t like being deep in my day to day life I’m sorry haha ,it’s exhausting,I just want to do my workouts,eat my salad and watch my YouTube videos, here is where I’d like to get more intellectual I suppose.
So i’m back to writing,i think i will do about two posts a month and work my way up,mainly because i want it to be as authentic as possible. I am an extremely principled person I try to always be honest and forth right in everything including my writing,so I’d rather give you less and be honest,than give you more and not really mean what I say.
Always feel free to comment,I’m open to conversation. I hope you enjoy my upcoming content.