Are you secretly mad at God? I believe a lot of Christians, have at one point or the other been unhappy or even angry with God. I know I certainly have, even if it’s just for the little or seemingly petty things, I remember I used to and still do sometimes, ask God why did he give me the snail like metabolism that I have, others can seem to eat mounds and mounds of food and get away with it and all I need to do is look at a chocolate bar and I gain 20 pounds. But on a serious note, resentment towards God, over what we feel we should have or shouldn’t have, and what our life should be and shouldn’t be is something that we all struggle with.
You see there is this thing called comparison that has us always constantly looking at what others have and what we don’t.
Nkechi just got a new promotion at her job, Femi who hasn’t been single for more than 2 weeks, has already met a great guy and they are already picking out baby names, you log on to Instagram, and you see your friend from high school, whose lifestyle will make the Kardashian-Jenner crew green with envy. Meanwhile, you are struggling just to make ends meet.
You’re stuck in a career you don’t like or worse still jobless and single as a dollar bill, in general you feel like your life really sucks. Then you get mad at God, first we start with the whys, why is my life like this, why me,why, why?, from the whys we graduate to, you don’t care God, you don’t care that I’m broke, you don’t care that I am unhappy, you don’t care that I feel as if I am stuck, I mean I pray all the time and I get nothing, my faith is holding on to really thin ice right now God, don’t you feel my pain?, can’t you see that I cry myself to sleep every day, do you not know that I get embarrassed when I see people who started out at the same pace as me, way ahead of me in life?.
I mean I could go on and on, you get the point. This is a very real temptation that has faced each and every one of us, and can lead to a hardened heart towards God if not addressed.
First of all, realize that you are not a bad person if you ever feel this way, you are however human and subject to the frailties of the human condition. This is where honesty comes in, you must be truthful about what you are feeling and exactly how you are feeling, be honest with God about this. You must also realize, that God loves you unconditionally, (see Roman 8:38-39), it is an unquestionable and undeniable fact, and something that must be settled in your heart without any dispute. That is why it is so important to spend time every day in God’s word so that you can see his promises upon your life and affirm them every day to yourself because the enemy tries to use the circumstances in our lives, to plant his lies into our subconscious, to make us question if God truly loves us, or maybe he doesn’t love us as much as our family and friends who seem to be having the easier draw of the straw than we do.
When we are fully aware that God truly loves us, then we know that he will always do what is best for us, and that might sometimes mean delaying the answers to our prayers or even denying answers to some of our prayers, especially, if he knows that what we are asking for is really not good for us. We may sit on our side of the grass and covet another persons’ life but how do we know if what they have is going to be what is best for us? God loves you enough to deny you what you want sometimes because he knows it will ultimately hurt you in the end even if you don’t!
If we are certain that God loves us then we must learn to trust in his timing and his decisions for our lives, sometimes we really just have to sit back and let him have the driver’s seat even if that makes us very uncomfortable, a lot of times the resentment we feel towards God is because, we are unhappy about the way he is handling the things we told him we want to happen, and not what his will actually is for us.
This is going to be a bitter pill to swallow, but the truth is that the moment you sign up to have Jesus as your lord and savior, you relinquish all control over every area of your life. God is sovereign and he is always in control of every situation at any point in time, even when bad things happen, he still is, and will always be in control. Sometimes, we really have no other choice, but to put blind faith and trust in him, and this can be difficult, when things seem to be very messy, every Sunday in Church we sing songs about God being faithful, we call him our way maker but when we encounter situations that we can’t understand we quickly start doubting God and trusting in his ability to do what he will say he will do. We must learn to rest in him.
Lastly, we must develop an attitude of gratitude in all circumstances, I think that sometimes, we get so caught up in wanting the big things that we forget to be thankful for the little things. Be grateful for good health, a deliciously cooked meal, the ability to pay your rent on time, the random kindness of a stranger, friends that you can rely on, that job might not be so great, but you are still able to pay your bills and somehow take vacations from time to time, you may be single with no suitor in sight, but you have the time and energy to your pursue your many passions that provide multiple sources of income for you.
In life sometimes perspective is everything, if you start looking at every good thing that happens to you no matter how small as God having your back and constantly watching out for you, instead of resenting him, you will start thanking him more, there are some things that you have, that may seem insignificant and mundane but are actually on a lot of people’s prayer list. Next time you see a friend or anybody have something that you want, give glory to God for what he has done in their lives because if he has done it for them, he will must certainly do it for you, perhaps even much more.
Psalm 73:12-28 The Message (MSG)
11-14 What’s going on here? Is God out to lunch?
Nobody’s tending the store.
The wicked get by with everything;
they have it made, piling up riches.
I’ve been stupid to play by the rules;
what has it gotten me?
A long run of bad luck, that’s what—
a slap in the face every time I walk out the door.
15-20 If I’d have given in and talked like this,
I would have betrayed your dear children.
Still, when I tried to figure it out,
all I got was a splitting headache . . .
Until I entered the sanctuary of God.
Then I saw the whole picture:
The slippery road you’ve put them on,
with a final crash in a ditch of delusions.
In the blink of an eye, disaster!
A blind curve in the dark, and—nightmare!
We wake up and rub our eyes. . . . Nothing.
There’s nothing to them. And there never was.
21-24 When I was beleaguered and bitter,
totally consumed by envy,
I was totally ignorant, a dumb ox
in your very presence.
I’m still in your presence,
but you’ve taken my hand.
You wisely and tenderly lead me,
and then you bless me.
25-28 You’re all I want in heaven!
You’re all I want on earth!
When my skin sags and my bones get brittle,
God is rock-firm and faithful.
Look! Those who left you are falling apart!
Deserters, they’ll never be heard from again.
But I’m in the very presence of God—
oh, how refreshing it is!
I’ve made Lord God my home.
God, I’m telling the world what you do!