The girl who lived in the shadows

Do you know her? Have you seen her? She was the girl who lived in the shadows, she didn’t come out very often, she was painfully shy and very self-aware,she loved reading romantic novels, and taking long walks by the beach. She spent her days dreaming about what could be.

She was very quiet, only spoke when she was spoken to, she didn’t like the sound of her own voice, it was too soft for her liking not assertive enough, she didn’t like being around people they made her nervous, they always had something to say.

Although she had grand dreams and ideas that could fill so many pages, she was unsure, she had doubts, she was anxious, she told herself they were just dreams that she was  incapable of fulfilling, she was excited by the possibilities but she was too scared of the disappointments.

I met her once you know, a really long time ago, I remember the first time we spoke, I remember it like it was yesterday, I asked her what was her name and why she was always alone. She said “Josephine, my name is Josephine, I am always alone because I am afraid, I prefer to be the girl in the shadows not seen or heard, I have so much I want to do but I have settled on just passing by”. Why I asked?  Well she said rather sheepishly, ”my voice is too soft no one will hear me, I walk too quietly my footsteps don’t make an impact, I love to sing but I don’t sound too good, I write stories, poems, songs but no one will read them, I am riddled with so much self-doubt it is quite impossible for me to do anything, so I decide to live in the shadows for that is where I find the most comfort, here I am not questioned, I am not ridiculed, there is no criticism, there are no failures, there is only darkness and I love it”.

But my dear I said ”the shadows are not the place for one as beautiful as you, for you have wonderful stories to tell, you have great songs to sing, you have beautiful dresses to make, your voice though soft is pleasing to the ear, your footsteps though unsure are steady, do not waste your time my love living in the shadows, do not fear failure my love, for nothing ventured is nothing gained, not everyone will like or accept you, but that’s okay, you were born to create and express the wonderful gifts that lie inside of you”.

”Really” she said, she smiled at me for the first time, okay she said ”I will no longer live in the shadows, for it possible for me live my dreams in spite of my doubts”. And with that she turned around gave me a hug and walked away. It has been a while since I saw the girl who lived in the shadows, for I do not know what became of her, I wonder sometimes, did she step out of the shadows and become all that she was destined to be, I have a feeling she did and for that I am very glad.

xoxo

Author: ndidindekwu

I am a woman who is passionate about educating and promoting the understanding of self and others, through storytelling. I love to take myself and my readers on a journey of self awareness by analyzing ideas, thoughts and emotions through written words. Do enjoy

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